Part 9: Complications

im frustrated..and angry...
maybe i expected a lot from Hamad...why did i jump so soon to another relationship...

all these thoughts were running in my mind...i don't know why i was feeling this way...it was just little things that have been adding up...

Hamad was still as nice as ever..but it was different..

he still acted like it was long distance..he didn't call or message much..it was like how it was when he was in the States,,except the only difference we see each other occasionally...maybe its because Hamad started to work in his family's company and was always super busy...

It all started like this...

Ana: Hamad...baby..when will i see you?
Hamad: hun..im busy today...i have a football game after work..and then i have to meet the guys at the gahwa...
Ana: ummm...ok i guess..another day....you want lunch tomorrow?
Hamad: hun u know that lunch with the guys is a must....

( Ana...hmm lunch with the guys a must..gahwa after dawam a must...so when is me time? !??! )
i let it go...but this was happening more and more...Hamad kept saying no to any kind of plans.. he was always busy...and when he was not he would try to " schedule 30 min " before football..

maybe i was being too sensitive or over analyzing every little detail..I'm not sure...

one day when Hamad agreed to see me before football practise...we were cruising in saar..our usual hang out..we were catching up with one another...

Hamad asked: hun i know we said we're seeing how this goes? but umm....should i change my facebook status?
ana: (laughing) you mean change your " its complicated" status...?
Hamad: (blushing) no...this was a long time ago..with my gf i mean ex..it was complicated..so ill just leave it like that then...
ana : ( a bit relieved) yeah its fine hamad...

Hamad continued to talk about his ex...and how they were supposed to be married when he finishes university...but she started dating other guys...and he found out...

i asked: do you still keep in touch with her?
hamad replied " yeah..we're friends she calls me when she knows I'm back in Bahrain..and asks about me and the family -u know...
i replied: oh ok....

to be honest..i didn't know and i had a bad feeling about this...

as we were cruising...he pointed to a friend's house..this is my buddy's house...
and this over there is the ex's house...

i commented: wow-she's everywhere today...
hamad: (laughing) no...she's not...
i asked: i dont know how to say this...but...do you still have feelings for her?
Hamad answered: noooooo !! are you serious? i dont-this was a long time ago...im over her..

i had a feeling that wouldn't be the last of it...
to say the least i was disappointed...why do i always end up for people with excess baggage?