Part 8: Explanations..

hamad sensed that i was a bit taken back with what he said..

he was like: i expected some kind of response from you babe..

ana: laaa hun..im so happy! walla i am....( a bit forceful)


hamad: you were one of many reasons baby..i was talking to my dad and my family and they all encouraged me to stay..i feel its the right thing..i love it here in Bahrain..and i don't want to be away from home anymore..i don't want to add pressure on you..i don't want it to come off like that..i want you to know that iv been thinking about this for some time..


ana: its just that I'm scared you end up hating it here or you think that I'm holding you back..that's why I'm a bit taken back about all this...I'm scared you end up hating me because you decided to stay here...

hamad: you don't have to be scared..i made this decision on my own hun...ana i want to settle here you know..I've been gone for so long i feel that i missed out on a lot..ill work in my family's company..all my friends are here..you're here...and don't ever say i'll end up hating you...you're my baby..

ana: are you 100% sure....? (with a smile on my face)

hamad: yes, i am...this is what i want to do...i love Bahrain..i don't get that feeling.. that people get ina their sick of the island..i want to work with my family...go out to lunch with the guys..the gahwa..play football..see you...everything will fall into place...

i hugged hamad..and he hugged me back..happy that things were on track again...i kinda felt relieved that it wasn't just because of me Hamad decided to stay..i was one of many reasons..and i found that flattering...i never had a guy do this to me..he really was different...i never met anyone like him..i was excited because my wish came true he was here for good and i felt that things can finally start to progress between us..

Hamad continued talking about his work plans..which department he was going to work in..i could sense he has been planning this for while...we were parked for the longest time..having one of those long chats...
i was happy...he was going to be here for good...this will bring us closer I'm sure...

i could see that Hamad was happy..he looked into my eyes..sensing that i felt the same way..
he quickly said.." what are you thinking about NOW NOW NOW.."
i laughed.." a lot of things.."
he said suggestively.." hmm...like what..."
i said : "umm...laish u put me on the spot...wayed ashya...bs mostly I'm so happy your here..walla ahiss things will be different..its not just long distance phone calls now..
he said.." u know what I'm thinking about? "
i replied.." heheh what...? I'm sure its something not good..." (laughing)
he said " how your lips would taste.."
ana : "HAMAAAAAAD!! hahaha you cant say that.."
he said: "ok ok...your cheek...see baby steps..."

he gave me one of his bear hugs...and kissed my cheek..
i turned a bright red color...he laughed sensing how shy i was...

hamad: ha baby...where do u want us to go now? what's next on our to do list?
ana: how about we continue cruising...and see where the road takes us...
hamad: ok hun...


for the next few days, me and hamad saw each other almost everyday!
i was falling for him..hard!! but to tell you the truth...I'm a bit scared because i don't want to be hurt again...the same way i was with...the ex....i cant even bring myself to say his name..I'm scared ill jinx things..i was so hurt..my spirit..my soul was broken..and i was slowly picking up the pieces with Hamad..who day by day is turning out to be a genuinely good guy..
i really hope things stay the same..but as they say nothing ever stays the same...


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a BIG sorry to all my wonderful readers...for the past couple of weeks i have been feeling completely uninspired..a lot of drama in my life..which all of you will soon be seeing in the next couple of posts..xoxoxo

Part 7:In bahrain...for good?!?

Hamad asked me if I can come to Lebanon...of course I said no! Even though we knew each other for a year now…but I just can’t just drop everything and go to Lebanon...

I replied (laughing): Hamad…you know I cant…walla I would love too bs I cant.

Hamad: Walla you should try to make it…I want to spend as much time with you as I possibly can.


ana: aww so cute!! bs hun u know I cant!! I promise we'll spend more time in Bahrain together!! Plus I came up with a lot of fun date ideas...

hamad: hmmmm..if that's the case…then i guess its ok…but the offer is still on the table if u change your mind..

hamad and I continued talking and catching up with each other's news…he was becoming a big part of my daily life…I really liked him...a lot…I don’t know if I was using him as a distraction or a fling to forget Khalid…I’m not sure really…but I knew one thing for sure…I liked him and I knew he liked me too…there was definitely a SPARK there...

hmmmm…the only negative aspect to all this was Hamad was in the States...I really wish he was here for good…

little did I know that wish was going to come true sooner then later...

I sent an email to my friend informing her of my news...

Ana: I have Hamad updates... he'll be here next week.. I really think he likes me maskeen he's so nice!! walla arta7 min aklmah... he came in the RIGHT time!!! This is what I needed to forget about Khalid!

May replied: Hamad came at a really good time! il9ara7a he's a life saver…atleast he's there to make u feel better, la2ana at this point its very important ina u feel good about yourself so u can move on. wala babe u deserve the BEST and nothing less...and inshala you will get it!! bs 9adgeeni the "right" person will come along in due course..kil shay maktoob sometimes u just have to go through tiny bumps along the way in which u learn from,, fa lati7tarain and don’t sit and wonder why things happen, because we might not know now but we will find out someday..
So when is hamad coming to bahrain?? exicted? =ppppp
shloon shakla btw? I mean enshofa fe amakin wela la??

Ana: he's coming next week!!! i cant wait Walla. He’s in Lebanon now…and I’m just waiting for him to come to Bahrain!! We have a lot on our to do list ;) heheh mathin you’ve seen him around babe…he’s younger then us!! Plus, he doesn’t hang out at the same places we do!!

May replied: You seem to be extra- excited about Hamad..I have a good feeling about him..! It’s so obvious you like him!! I know u too well!!! hahaha yala inshala u guys will have a blast!!! Are you taking any days off?? Spending the day with him?

Ana: laa I’m not taking any days off. I’ll see him after work.....we’re just going with the flow babe. Whatever that means... im so excited!! :) My luck is finally turning around!!


A week later, Hamad was finally in Bahrain!!

He called me as soon as he landed…and said: baby…I'm here…

ana: 7imdilla 3ala ilsalama!! How was your flight?

hamad: it was short…good to be back home!! My friends just picked me up…I’ll pass by my house and basalim 3ala the family…see you afterwards then?

ana: ( excited) eee for sure…Saar?

hamad: ee ill pick u up in little while then..

As I parked my car in Saar cinema…ready to get into Hamad's car…I was nervous…super nervous.. My heart was beating…this was my first official date after my break-up with Khalid…I tried to distract myself from over-thinking the whole situation which I usually do...so I checked the mirror AGAIN to see if I looked cute for our date…I wore my favorite black dress with black stockings and gold ballet flats…and I had on a funky colorful necklace and I thought I looked pretty good.

He parked next to my car...I left my car…and he came to me…he hugged me hello and kissed my cheeks. I immediately forgot about my nervousness and I felt comfortable around him.. i got into the car..and we started chatting like we've been doing this all our lives..

he commented : you look so beautiful…

me(blushing) : thanks e3onik il 7elwa..

Hamad: (with a mischievous smile) So what’s the first thing on our to do list...?



ana: hmmm hot chocolate?

Hamad: ok…9ar…

We stopped in Starbucks...and he asked: ill go down and get you your hot chocolate baby…I’m sure its crowded…do you want anything specific with yours?

ana: Hun..plain hot chocolate please…skinny..

Hamad: ok..degayig.. a few minutes later, Hamad came in got the hot chocolate drinks and we continued cruising in the area... I felt genuinely happy…he was such a decent guy...

Hamad: Baby…I have something to tell you..

ana: what’s up? Tell me?

Hamad: I might stay here for good…and work with my family's company... and I wanted you to know that one of the reasons I’m staying is because of you...

I was shocked...was this moving too fast for me? What did I get myself into?